Motherhood...

Being a mother...

I wish I could put to words the feeling that I get when I look at my boys.

I have loved very deeply before,

but this is different.

When I think about them

I can actually feel my heart.

I pray for their happiness

and the ability to take away their pain...

I try to be just a little kinder to others

and to enjoy life a little more

because I know that they are watching.

The world is not a pretty place,

but I try to do my part to make it better.

For my boys...

I love to watch them take in life

you know,

the little things that we take for granted.

Watching Roman touch a blade of grass in for the first time.

Listening to Griffin say "Wow" when he sees things that amaze him

like big buildings and Christmas lights.

When I look at my boys I see the good.

I don't remember the months of interrupted sleep

and I don't remember the throw yourself on the floor tantrums.

Instead I see that God really loves me.

He loves me so much that he entrusted me with these precious gifts...